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Science, Myth, and Lost Little Ones
11One year ago today, I lost the baby that I was carrying. In many ways, it was devastating. How could it be anything but devastating? But the experience also created a deep well of gratitude in me. Gratitude for such loving family and friends. Gratitude …
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When the Expected Arrives, Unexpectedly
Six months ago, I predicted that this moment would arrive right about now. I predicted that there would be hope unfulfilled. I predicted that there would be tears and sadness and renewed grief. I predicted that a time would come, and go, and leave me …
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Gates Foundation Blog Series on Stillbirth
The Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation Blog recently published a series of posts on stillbirth and pregnancy loss. As part of a response to a recent series on stillbirth from The Lancet, these posts are partly intended to shed light on the fact that …
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It Takes a Community
Flowers that diffuse the sadness. Phone calls and emails and cards sharing love and light, stories and sorrow. Boxes filled with chocolate and magazines and toys and pasta. A chocolate-frosted chocolate cake. Children’s drawings. Offers to babysit my children so that I can spend the …
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Rattled by the Rush
When I first saw that shock of red, when I made that first phone call (the one where I first uttered the words ‘I’m losing the baby’), when I felt that first cramp, when I completely and finally lost my baby: my sobs were primal, …
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